God Alone is Enough

I am afraid. No doubt about it. I have totally exposed myself. By writing and publishing my book, I have put myself in a vulnerable place. A place where I can be criticized and judged and ignored, etc. After a lifetime of hiding and keeping the secret of being sexually abused, I am right out in the open. Oh, my.
Then add to that my usual way of needing to be perfect and do everything right. And worrying about every little thing. Oh, my.
I went to the beach this morning. I needed to chill out and relax. I didn't stay long, but it was beautiful. The Gulf was all stirred up with surf. Not often that I see so many large waves.
What I see on the outside is also what I feel like on the inside - there are huge waves and undertow inside of me. I am all stirred up. Time for that trust thing again. So while I walked through the surf, I kept up a conversation with the Lord. And asked him for a little help. And some peace.
It was later that I heard these words in my heart, "Perfect love drives out fear." 1 John 4:18
Perfect love. God is Perfect Love. And then I hear these words - God alone is enough. I know that is from St. Teresa of Avila, and I find it here at a recent blog named Veritas.

God Alone is Enough
Let nothing upset you
Let nothing startle you
All things pass;
God does not change.
Patience wins
all it seeks.
Whoever has God
lacks nothing:
God alone is enough. - St. Teresa of Avila
That was what I needed. I still have butterflies in my stomach, but they seem to be going away.
Thank you Lord.