Thursday, October 7, 2010

Dear Mary

Dear Mary,
Today we honor you as Our Lady of the Rosary. It is a beautiful Feast. It is a beautiful prayer.
I still struggle with praying the rosary. I have struggled for years. And I am pretty sure you understand. The difference these days, however, seems to be that I do not beat up on myself about it. I do not feel like there is anything wrong with me like I used to feel. I just do the best I can with it.
I pray the rosary when I feel the "call" from your Son.
I pray the rosary when there is someone in need.
I pray the rosary when I am afraid. It seems to soothe me somehow.
I pray it alone and I pray it with others. Mostly alone. I prefer alone. I can meditate on the mysteries better.
I have been pondering today about why you have so many images and names. Could it be that we just have so many needs? Is this another way for Jesus to show his loving concern for us?
I did not grow up knowing you, Mary, but I want to know you. I do know I love you. I love you because Jesus loves you. I love you because you help me feel closer to Jesus.
Thank you for saying Yes to God.
Happy Feast Day!

14 comments :

Karinann said...

Colleen,
Beautiful and heartfelt prayer to Our Lady. I too have difficulty saying the Rosary with any regularity. I like "I pray the rosary when I feel the call from your Son."
Thanks for sharing these beautiful thoughts.
Hugs!

Colleen said...

Karinann, thank you. It was surely from my heart. Sometimes I get the "call" and it is strong. Most times, I struggle. Nice to know I am not alone. Hugs!

Anne said...

Ditto Karinann on the heartfelt part. I used to always think I liked praying the rosary better with others, but I can see your point, it is easier to meditate when alone, without distractions.

Mary must be beaming over your beautiful words, the kind that a Mother would tape to her refrigerator so that she could read them and smile every time she passes by!

Victor S E Moubarak said...

OK ... the Rosary and me ...

I try to pray it, but I too have difficulties ... I'll be honest ... I either lose count, forget to move on with the beads, or I fall asleep.

Is it true your Guardian Angel finishes the Rosary for you if you fall asleep? If so, mine is getting quite annoyed and thinking "Hey you ... stop devolving your prayer duties on to me!"

I try to pray the Rosary "live" with other people on the Internet. I've put a link on my Blog. Top right.

God bless.

Mary333 said...

Colleen,
I liked Anne's comment about Mother Mary beaming after reading your prayer! You may struggle with the Rosary but you sure don't struggle with heartfelt prayers to Our Lady! This was beautiful!

Colleen said...

Anne, I love your comment about Mary beaming! Thank you! I love thinking that she is!

Victor, I do not know about guardian angels finishing our prayers when we fall asleep. But my spiritual director once told me not to worry about it - he said he cannot think of a nicer way to fall asleep than to be praying the rosary. I agree!
I have that link on my new website too! Pretty cool.

Oh, thank you Mary. So glad to know you think it was beautiful. God bless!

Carol@simple_catholic said...

Thank you for sharing this prayer to Mary, Colleen. It is beautiful!

I prefer praying the rosary alone, too. I can concentrate better that way.

God bless.

Colleen said...

Carol, thank you! God bless!

evanscove said...

I concur with all the positive comments about this lovely, heartfelt prayer to the Blessed Mother. I think you've expressed sentiments that probably all Catholics have at times. Praying the rosary is good for us, though I've often neglected it quite badly. :-(

May you continue to be blessed on your faith journey.

Evan

Barb Schoeneberger said...

That picture of Mary is one of my favorites - by Chambers, I think.

We can ask our Guardian Angels to finish the rosary if we fall asleep and I'm sure they do.

Like you, I prefer to pray it alone, but there is something wonderful about an entire congregation before Mass praying it together - all Mary's children loving her at the same time. I can't meditate on anything in a group, though.

As soon as I start waking up in the morning I imagine myself on Mary's lap and start praying the rosary, taking whatever meditations come to mind. Often it is no more than thinking of each phrase of the Hail Mary and what it means. I figure if God wants it any other way He'll help me.

It pleases Jesus very much that we love His mother and try to love her as He does.

Colleen said...

Evan, thank you. I always appreciate your comments. Blessings to you!

Barb, I agree with what you said about praying with a large group. I feel that way about a lot of prayers. It always moves me to hear the Our Father during Mass. I listen and hear all these voices sounding like one voice.
I love your description of how you pray the rosary in the morning. Very beautiful and trusting. God bless!

Colleen said...

Carol, thank you so much! I am so glad to have met you through Sunday Snippets! God bless!

Lioness said...

Colleen,

Your love for Mother Mary shows.

Your struggles reflect my own, Now I just accept the struggle and get on with it. I pray the rosary with a rosary group and by myself at night,in the car,on my bike with an ipod to count the beads for me as I listen and pray along. Today as I was praying and riding my bike, I thought how doing this everyday kept me in the mysteries of Christ's life. I could picture myself at the manger in Bethlehem or place my head next to Jesus as Mary held Him.

I found beautiful creations on YouTube,too. Great for beginners as well as old veterans.Here's a sample:
http://lionessblog.com/the-rosary/

Colleen said...

Lioness, thanks for visiting my blog and for your comments. Glad I am not alone. I pray it in the car more than anywhere else and also when I go to a penance service. I just feel the nudge to do it then. Thanks for your link. Will check it out. God bless!