Thursday, February 23, 2012

Flapping My Wings

I was reading my new ebook the other day (yes, my own ebook). I was reading it because I wanted to remind myself of where I was in my spiritual life at the time of my retreat. Had I learned anything? Had it changed me?
The name of the ebook is First Things First, A Personal Retreat Journal. I named it that because I kept getting the message that I needed to put God first before all things.
So I came to a passage where I wrote that it was raining very hard. I was concerned about the birds flying in this storm - 
"They look exhausted trying to beat their wings with the wind and the rain pelting down on them. There are enough trees around here for them to rest in. Why don't they?"
Yes, why don't they?
When I wrote that, I didn't realize how this related to me when I wrote that. Now I do.
I often feel like I am flapping my own wings like crazy, not getting anywhere. I still do not put God first all the time. I am working on it. But I am often too busy, flapping my wings. 
So why do I not rest in the places God has given me?
Why do I not rest more at home? At church? In prayer?
Why do I not act like the beloved disciple and rest my head on Jesus' chest?
Good question.


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14 comments :

mary333 said...

Oddly enough, when I read your book yesterday (I ordered it on my Kindle) the sentences about the birds reminded me of myself, too. I read the book in one sitting but will go through it more slowly during Lent. I could relate to so much of what you wrote in your book and I understand now why the Lord was nudging me to read it. Second things have been taking place of a lot of first things lately and I found myself nodding my head throughout your book. I don't know how it happened - those "second things" just have a habit of nosing their way to the top when I'm not careful. Sometimes I worry so much about stuff that they BECOME first things and I don't let God be God but instead cling to my worries and fears. I really enjoyed your new book and am looking forward to going through it in a deeper way over the course of Lent. The weather has been so nice here lately that I read it on my deck.

The book made me smile a lot because it reminded me so much of you :) Thanks for sharing your retreat with us, Colleen. Me, I'm glad none of your watches worked!

Sorry for hogging so much comment space!

Daily Grace said...

Well, now that Mary hogged so much space!!! JUST KIDDING! I am going to order the book right now!
Thank you for being such an inspiration Colleen!

mary333 said...

I'm sitting here giggling at DG's words! Just for that I'm going to pop on over to her site tomorrow and show her just how much space I really can hog ;)

Colleen said...

Mary, I love your comment! As for the long or short of it - LOL
Anyhow, I appreciate your kind comments about my book. Care to write a review for Amazon.com and my website? No pressure!
I go through the same thing. The 2nd things crowding out the first thing. Probably a struggle we will always have. Good that we recognize it though.

Daily Grace, thank you! Appreciate it! Laughing at your teasing Mary.
I am going to have to go see what Mary writes on your blog now! Isn't this fun?

Daily Grace said...

Yes, it is fun!!

Barb Schoeneberger said...

Excellent questions. Today I realized that I have no idea what it is like to be perfectly at one with God's will like the Blessed Mother always was. For me the first thing is to love God's will and keep it.

Colleen said...

Barb, that is beautiful. And the only way I can think to do that is to pray. No matter how difficult.
Thank you! God bless.

Karinann said...

Colleen,
I can so relate to this. Flapping my wings is a perfect analogy. Although they may be exhausted, the birds seem to get somewhere, where as when I "flap my wings" I just end up tired in the same place. I need to as you put it- rest in the places God gives me.
I just ordered your book, cab't wait to read it. I sometimes go back and read my own journals too~sometimes seeing where we have been can help to go forward to where we need to go.
And no I am not trying to beat Mary in the hogging comment space arena :)

Colleen said...

Karinann, hog as much as you want to! lol
I agree - reading our journals does help us on our spiritual journey. Thank you for ordering my book! Hope you like it! God bless!

mary333 said...

Hee! Hee! DG's going to be flapping her wings too after the comment I just left her! I bet she doesn't put it up!

mary333 said...

Of course I will write a review :) I had already planned to do one on Amazon and my blog. Can I use a few quotes from the book? I'll try to get it up next week. God bless!

Colleen said...

Mary, absolutely! Thank you!

Colleen said...

Mary, I am going to have to check out DG's blog now. You guys are funny.

mary333 said...

She DID put it up! Lol! And I thought she wouldn't because I talked about septic tanks and cookies! Poor Michael, who commented after me, must have thought, "Mary's gone mad for sure!"

Thanks for the permission to use quotes from your book!