Sunday, August 9, 2015

Help Me Believe

"Amen, amen, I say to you, whoever believes has eternal life.
 I am the bread of life. " - John 6:47-48 

I remember very clearly one of my first appointments with my spiritual director. I remember telling him something negative about myself. I had rather low self-esteem at the time and I often put myself down.

When I finished my self-criticism, Father told me something that I will never forget. He reminded me of the Indwelling of the Trinity. He said that I should not put myself down in such a manner. You need to treat yourself with more respect, he said.

"Our Lord doesn't come down from heaven every day just to wait there in a gold ciborium: He has found a much better heaven for His resting place: a Christian soul, made in His own image, the living temple of the Blessed Trinity." - St. Therese of Lisieux

I ponder the mystery of the Real Presence of Jesus in the Eucharist. I love and adore the Eucharist. What a blessed gift!

But I often forget that Jesus also dwells within me, nourishing me every day. Or is it that I have a hard time believing it? It doesn't seem that I could be worthy, does it? To be a tabernacle for the Lord?

I mean, do I really get it? Do I understand  - what Jesus is telling us?

Which brings us back to faith.  "Whoever believes …"

Fr. John Kavanaugh, in his reflection on this reading, inspired my reflection here with this quote: "Our problem is not just believing that God could inhabit bread. It is believing that God could inhabit us."

Jesus, the Bread of Life. Help me believe.


Michael said...

Love this post Colleen! What a great perspective! God Bless you.

Colleen said...

Thank you, Michael. I thought a lot about it at Mass today and I felt so thankful! And that is what Mass (the Eucharist) means right? Giving thanks. God is good!